Thursday, April 12, 2007

My oh my

So since my last post my bible reading is still not where I want it to be. But life has been hetic in the Wentling household as well. Ben had his surgery on March 22 and that was the last time that I read my bible until this week. I was up most nights with my son and so any kind of free time that I had I spent sleeping. My son's insomia was solved the day that his catheder came out which happened to be a week after his surgery. The very next night my mother-in-law flew in which then I really didn't have any free time. She left one week later which leads me to this week. All of this to say that it is so frusterating when you have a bible reading plan that you get behind in and you feel like such a moron and you want to just quit and start over. So, I have been reading like three times the amount then what I am scheduled to read. I imagine that I am not the only one who feels this way when they get behind. It is so stupid because it is just the enemy trying to discourage me and put thoughts into my head like "You did fine when you weren't reading. You don't even need to read, alot of christians don't." Does anyone one else gets these thoughts in their head? I NEVER want to forget how dependant I am on my savior and that I NEED His word in me everyday. It really shoudn't be an option to not to read, do I have the option to Do I have the option to eat...I don't ...unless I want a bad migraine. Is it possible to get to the point where I will get a migraine from not reading my bible? That would be nice, it might drive me more to His word, trembling and weak needing refreshment and nourishment that only comes from Him.

1 comment:

cwblogger said...

Hang in there, Bekah! You are striving and persevering. As James would say, "and let endurance have its perfect result so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." (James 1:4; I threw down the Bible verse card!) Trials are sobering and I am glad to see that you are motivated to greater righteousness in your daily walk! I know that our whole family benefits from your relationship with Christ!